2.2.11

Maybe

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "some days i feel like shit,
Some days i wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, i find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But i feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when i pick up i don't have much to say,
So, i want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That i'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that i've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "where'd you go?"

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, i find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, i plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And i'll tell you, i want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That i'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that i've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "where'd you go?"

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That i'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess i've had it with you and your career,
When you come back i won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,

Please come back home... the real you.

E quando não estás é dificil, é como caminhar sem chão, é como respirar, mas não ter ar. E como é possivel amar uma pessoa com quem só se esteve uma vez? Eu gostava de poder dizer que não, não, não é verdade. Mas é e apesar do que sinto ter mudado porque a desilusão foi maior que tudo o resto. O facto de ter mudado não quer dizer que não sinta nada de todo. Apenas estou farta de pensar, farta de sofrer, farta de ficar aqui, farta de querer, de não querer, farta de esperar, farta do nada, farta do tudo, farta de ti, farta de mim, farta de nós,  farta do que nunca vamos ser, farta de pensar no que fomos, farta do somos. Farta dos palpites, farta dos conselhos, farta de ouvir, farta das decisões. Basicamente estou farta de ter de ser adulta :c


É um talvez.

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